Still frustrated?!!

I will just discuss with you my latest news!! just a discussion without any personal opinion from my side and I am leaving the comments to you guys. I already told you that I am applying to my MD as any staff member would do (weather we like it or not), still I am insisting on the fact that I do really like my job!! You can get back to my earlier post "why frustrated" to know the whole story, but now I am updating you. I was allowed to register my MD under the umbrella of the new educational system "Credit hours"!! it sounds funny, right? As they say, our certificates needn't to be equalized any where out side Egypt after this system is applied!! I can take it and work in the USA for example!! do you believe it?? Anyway, I was delayed for more than 6 months, stayed suspended with my research point on my desk waiting for this amazing new system. They "suddenly" discovered that I can register for the MD but I can not register my research point!!! According to the new system, the candidate can apply for the degree at the beginning of the fall semester (in September), and start taking lots of theoretical courses in the field of interest. Each credit hour means that the student takes one theoretical hour / week for 14 consecutive weeks!! They found out few days ago that I should successfully finish 12 credit hours (12 X 14= 168 hours lectures) and pass their exams before I can propose a research point!! yes I have it already but this is not official my dear, so you have to follow the system. Take 3 months to finish your courses, apply for the exam in January, pass all the courses with a grade higher than "C" of course, then "BINGO".........You can now apply for your research point!! So, according to the most optimistic scenario, I can not prove that this research point is mine before next February or march!! this is exactly one year after settling it down and preparing every thing to proceed in a useful research that would help lots of patients who are really in need. Do you know how long does it take to make your good ideas applicable in a half developed country?? Do you know how many researches could be done in one whole year?? Do you know how many person can steel your thoughts, ideas and projects and relate them to themselves during this long year? Do you know that I had already started working on my project, trying to gain as much time as I can but I can be confronted with one silly man (and we have lots of them Alhamdolillah) who would object on my research six months from now and stop every thing and makes me think from the very beginning once more? Any idea what could be my reaction then? Do you know if I am still frustrated or not??

Why frustrated?

I never thought that I might use this name as my display!! Being optimistic was my most important character. When my friends talk about leaving the country, I would have objected badly to that, I used to say "if we all leave it, who would fix it?". We always argued about this and I always sticked to my point of view. I remember a collegue of mine who was a demonstrator in the faculty of pharmacy, he left everything behind him and went to Canada for his MD. I asked him about his planes, he had only one plan: leaving Egypt! For me, Everything was fine, I obtained my masters in a very short time. I refused to look seriously for a PhD chance in Europe or America for some religious reasons (travelling on my own for few years is not accepted by most of the experts views). Also I was not comfortable with the idea of my staying on my own in a foreign country (did i mention that i am very sentimental?). So I decided to stay where I am and register an Egyptian MD, being a staff member I always looked for changing the current situations to the better isA. I finished my masters in April 2007, the department thought about giving me a research point may be in september 2007!! (Because I was not promoted yet!!). We kept searching for a subject that fits our society and our techniques.I got them about 20 item, but all were rejected! I even looked for a double channel with an English professor, he provided me with a nice point but my dear staff refused it, they said that it is difficult and not intresting. I kept trying till March 2008 when we finally settled down, this point will cost me thousands of pounds and it will not be funded by the university, but no problem with me. Suddenly, they decided to apply a new system in the post graduate studies, but they will not be able to apply it till next september! Ok, I am ready now guys so let me register in the old system and the younger generations would use the new system. Nooooooooooooooo, you wait staying still with your new research point in your drawer till next september and apply for the new system!!! whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy? because if you all registered now, then when we apply the new system we will not find candidates! (I forgot to tell you that the new system takes more money out of your pocket, but this goes only for candidates who are not staff members, I tried to explain this point to them but they insisted on the fact that we all would pay!!). Me(and another 2 collegues in the same situation of myself) had no other choice except waiting till september. Today, the nice employee told me that the nice vice dean decided that I will not register my research protocol before december 2008!!! Whyyyyyyyyyyyyy? so that you finish one semester theoratical study. I have a new research point since March and I have to wait till december to register it by my name, to keep my research rights! do you imagine how many person would publish my point before I could be able to do it?? do you imagine that I finished my masters by April 2007 and I have to wait till december 2008 to register for my MD? do you imagine that I sacrificed travelling abroad and prefered staying in my country in an attempt to change whatever going on here but I can not do it? It is not that I am a snob or anything but I know very well that I am good at my work, from both the practical and the research aspects but.......I have no words to express how I feel. I have no words to express how mad I am, at the system, at people, at the country, at everyone and everything. Why can't they discriminate between someone who wants to do something and dozens who want to do nothing? Why can't they realize that we can do a lot of things simply by giving a space to some minds to do whatever they think about without facing hundreds of obstacles every day? just give us a space people, I do not need your help but back off me please, please, please you.................... Am I right to be frustrated or am I exaggeratting?